When I Grow Up

I often find myself wondering about my future and what it will look like. One question that continually runs through my head is what will I do with myself when all of my kids are in school, or even when all of my kids have graduated and moved on with their lives?? This is some what of a haunting question for me. I am the kind of person that mostly lives in the moment and kinda goes with whatever direction the wind is blowing that day (Thaddeus is teaching me to be more patient and to listen for what direction God is calling me). I went to college for 1 year so I have no college education with a degree, which most of my generation does. This makes it very hard for me to get a job other than retail or fast food... don't get me wrong, I've done both and respect those who do retail and food, it's not easy. But I aspire to more than that. When we lived in Ames and in Iowa City I had retail jobs at party stores... I won't name them, but if you know me well you know where I worked. One party store was pretty amateur and had a long way to go to become a thriving business in the community. And the other party store was top of the line in every aspect. I learned a lot from both experiences from a business/manager perspective and also from a personal perspective. The other day, I needed some party supplies so I wandered into Mason City's only party store, that I know of (if there is another one somebody please tell me where it is!?) It was a bad experience! I am overly critical of party stores, seeing as I have worked at a very good one and a not so good one, but this store was the worst I have ever been in! I'm not going to bore anyone with why the store is so bad... if you really want to know e-mail me and I'll fill you in. I was telling Thaddeus just how bad this store is and he told me that I was, in fact, being overly critical in the sense that people in Mason City who have never been to a different party store have no idea just how bad it is. And it hit me... someday, I want to own a party store and show everyone in Mason City what they have been missing out on for all of these years! The first step, besides money, would probably be going back to school and getting some form of business degree... the idea of school makes me feel sick, so we'll see about that! Obviously, this is a long term goal and it may never happen, but it would be cool. (And I mean no disrespect to those who enjoy the party store in MC, I'm just overly critical in the area!)